Berlin

Berlin

Dienstag, 26. März 2013

Retracing Happiness - rewritten



I try to retrace happiness -
the smell in my aunts stable
the smell of the cows
my favourite was red and named Mia
I used to spend the summers there
as a girl, driving the tractor over the fields
running across the meadows
free and wild
feeding the little pigs
the calves rubbing their noses against me
I don’t remember much happiness
but never thought I was not happy
I just didn’t know how happiness felt
and took what I had for it

I try to retrace happiness -
the cool water and the hot sun
on my skin
when I went swimming
with another aunt she threw
me into the water so much fun
we sun bathed side by side on a blanket
I told her stories and looked at her painted toenails
she taught me how to swim
I ate french fries at the pool with her
before she had children of her own
she took me and I wanted her to be my mom
I don’t remember much happiness
but never thought I was not happy
I just didn’t know how happiness felt
and took what I had for it

the option to choose happiness
as a life governing attitude
for me it was a gift random
some had it some didn’t.

© Susanne Becker

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